Slept most of the day. Turned out to have a slight fever. Felt really tired. Thus, the sleeping most of the day. Woke briefly to eat. Then went to bed. It was hard to sleep at night having slept most of the day, but I stayed in bed and toughed it out. Reading. Listening to something on the kindle fire. Woke late the next day as well. I did stay awake long enough for my spouse to run to the pharmacy and pick up my medications. Weekdays he doesn't get home from work in time to do so and really I am the one with the car and the time... I need to get back on the auto refill. Perhaps I will look into the mail-order pharmacy thing. I don't like running out of meds. It makes me nervous and twitchy. Not really twitchy phyiscally. Just internally. Anxious. Grateful Crap: sleep Daily Convexions: sleep Youngest child turned three years old this day. Spent the morning volunteering with her Early Childhood Family Ed class. I read the same story to her and a few of her friends five times in a row. It was a great hit. The Very Cranky Bear. Got stuff for her birthday dinner (kid's choice): "forgotten" tofu, Japanese rice (kokuho rose), Teriyaki Nori, sauteed mushrooms and roasted brussels sprouts. Topped off with chocolate cake. People often comment (based on the types of foods my kids love to eat) that my children will eat anything. This is not true. They have an equally narrow pallette as any of their peers. They just happen to prefer a number of foods that many children won't even try. Like quail eggs. And mochi with red bean paste. Tandoori chicken. Garbanzo beans. Salmon. Roasted beets. We are not, however, very good about having things like this on hand regularly. Which means often we fall back on a more traditional menu: mac and cheese, chili, pancakes, grilled cheese, quesadillas, baked eggs... If I were one of the Perfect Pinterest moms I would never make mac and cheese from a box. No matter how many cute organic stories there are about bunnies on the box. And my children would always have mostly vegetables on their plate. However, I am not. Grateful Crap: Three years with this one. Wow. Daily Convexions: Volunteered with kids Saw family Ate good food (did not take meds; still haven't picked them up.) :( I had a great time bidding farewell to my students. I don't have much else to say on this day. Ummm... let me see. I think I ran out of my mds on this day or the day before. I did call to renew them but i did not pick them up. Grateful crap: being able to work with really amazing students. Daily Convexions: took meds (I think) I have made a disastrous disaster in my house. I meant to come home and tidy up in the living room. Instead I started rearranging the kitchen. Why do I do these things? Rhetorical questions. In a few minutes I need to rush out and race to the school to help with the elementary orchestra/choir concert. And I have chosen to sit and write instead of trying to right all the wrongs of this disasterhood. When I come home this evening the mess will still be here. Sigh. Grateful Crap: something or other-- oh yeah. The fact that there is still an elementary and middle school orchestra. Daily Convexions: took meds (although in the afternoon) I bullied some of my students into taking academic risks. One was not sure that she was ready to take college-level classes and was going to just keep taking not-for-credit English classes. The other one had decided that she could not possibly pass the GED before the end of this year so she was going to wait until next year and start over with her studying for a completely redesigned and totally different GED test. Ha! In a fantastic example of using my powers for good instead of evil, I strong-armed one of them into taking the accuplacer exam and the other one into taking more than just one of the five required GED exams. Results? (Spoilers, because I didn't actually find this out until Wednesday) The three GED tests that have been graded have passing scores. (Still waiting on the results of the remaining two) and the accuplacer exam scores were fantastic. The downside of this particular week and this time of year... I am NOT taking good care of me. I have been exersizing less and eating more. And eating very very poorly. Far too much sugar. Ugh. Blech. Grateful Crap: my amazing students Daily Crap: Took meds in the morning (skipped the Y. Which is not so good. Also running out of my meds. Need to reschedule) Okay, I realize that the blog post title might be a bit overdramitic. And could be somewhat frightening considering this is a blog about kicking Depression's ass.
However, Monday was the beginning of the final week before Winter Break (magical, magical words). Monday was full of testing students, administering surveys and planning for next semester. I want to get as much planning done as I can now so I can really relax during break. Ummm... that's it for this. Grateful Crap: cutting myself some slack Daily Convexions: took meds
If I were on the ball (which I am not) I would have a picture of the daughter in her makeshift Santa Lucia getup. I got a size 12 white shirt (which was a long dress on her) and used a red scarf as a belt. My mom had a plastic Lucia crown. She was pretty cute. We made some saffron buns and celebrated our Swedish heritage. It was a pretty good day. Earlier in the morning my volunteer work with the kids in the Early Childhood clasroom made my smile muscles hurt. It is an occupational hazard. Or whatever the volunteer version of that might be. I'm in the preschool room. I can't even tell you specifically what they had me smiling about. They just totally rock. Got home late. Had pizza. Lazed about and went to bed. I know, lame excuse for the late post. I'm just going to have to cut me some slack in this busy holiday season. Grateful Crap: realizing that other people don't make me feel bad; I do. (Startling revalation, I know. I will likely need to have this revelation forty three more times before it fully takes root.) Daily Convexions meds in the morning time with family cutting myself some slack instead of panicking to get everything done. (in an eerie foreshadowing of the following day...) I woke at six a.m. and engaged in "recreational prep." This is what I call work I put into teaching a class that really goes beyond the time that I am payed for... But it is so much fun. And I am learning something. And I will be able to use what I do time and time again. And it is one of the things I am trying to cut back on, but I had poor impulse control. Then I decided to clean the entire living room (including behind the television, underneath the bookshelves and in back of the piano). Also I thought I should make some chocolate chip cookies while the spouse was away. Only we didn't have enough flour. So I used some rye flour and through a bunch of oatmeal in as well. It is a darn good thing that the people came home when they did because I was starting to zone out a bit and panic that I was not going to be able to finish what I had started. Duh. There was no possible way that any one person could finish what I had started. But I have this panicky feeling that if I don't get all of it done right now in its entirety (whatever it is), it will never get done AND all of the work I have done will be undone. Which, it was pointed out to me, is not a very useful thing to say and not a very healthy way to think about this. Eventually roped the children into helping with this and dialed back on the amount of ridiculous tidying I was going to attempt. Grateful Crap: playing horn with a really great band. (http://grandsymphonicwinds.org/) Daily Convexions: took meds in the morning (I think) tidied some and stopped before it got too ridiculous talked with family played horn It was the last day of band practice prior to our concert. I technically could have posted earlier in the day, but it instead I spent some time running around-- I was early to pick up my childen from school. But then I ended up being one of the last parents to leave. I had driven away from the school when my middle child had a complete meltdown over not having all the ingredients necessary to complete his homework. Rather than drive home and face possibly hours of frustration (for everyone) I turned around, went back into the school and retreived the information required from his teacher. The end. Grateful Crap: having children who still express their upsettedness loudly enough that I can help them figure things out. Daily Convexions took meds in the morning 37 minutes on the elliptical trainer talked to a friend did not attempt the impossible mostly went to bed on time |
Archives
May 2020
Categories
All
K. BuchananQuaker, teacher, parent, |