(back-dated post due to above-mentioned incapacitation) Sometimes I think that I don't have bipolar. That the way I experience the world is typical. However It seems likely that people who do not have a mood disorder Do not have uncontrollable crying for an entire day Triggered by a dead caterpillar (metaphorically representing failure as a parent) And these same people probably do not Cry for the duration of an acupuncture appointment Lying still in the darkness with tears rolling into their ears And the only thing that stops the crying jag: Listening to (but not watching) violent shows Stitching tiny glass beads into deerskin With a glover's needle And a thimble made from masking tape Unable to stop The choices: shut out the world or dissolve into tears This day (yesterday) was one of the worst. Could not cope with anything. Not even minor things.
So I did these things: called the OFP and left a message that I needed to see her sooner rather than later (she scheduled me for Saturday). called psych np me: I'm really weepy *sniff* psych NP: Still? That's not good. It started with the lithium, didn't it. me: I don't know. Maybe. Yes. psych NP: You need to stop the lithium. Take one pill today, one pill tomorrow and then done. Equatorial actions: made some calls. that's all. Comments are closed.
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K. BuchananQuaker, teacher, parent, |