I have been doing (what I think) is a relatively good job of not getting stuck on one thing and obsessively doing that over and over and over and over. Spent some time in the garden. Spent some time with F/friends. Largely maintained the Great Clean that was begun earlier in the summer. I have been good about having one person come over each week to assist (as a general contractor of sorts) as I get rid of a bunch of crap. Some darn good crap. But crap, nonetheless. I went to the YMCA today and worked out for the first time in a really long while. The reasons for this are threefold (maybe more folds that I am not thinking on right now.)
I went to a doctor appointment today and mentioned that I should not take prednisone... wondered if it was on my chart per my primary care physician. It wasn't. So I had them stick the info in there. Are you allergic? No. It is just contraindicated because of my bipolar disorder. What does it do to you? It can induce mania. Okay. So what should I write? Should not be administered prednisone due to... a mood disorder? I found it interesting that although I have a bipolar diagnosis ON MY CHART and was openly talking to her about this she was hesitant to write BIPOLAR DISORDER. For some reason, "mood disorder" is considered culturally acceptable. Politically correct. Inoffensive. But bipolar is scary and should be only hinted at or whispered. Are there really other "mood disorders" or is it just a straight-out substitution? I don't care to look at them moment. This summer (going quickly) is to be filled with: beading, writing, gardening, teaching, swimming, laughing, walking... and other stuff. Equatorial actions: posted went to y took my meds (200mg lamotrigine, 450mg bupropion) went to see acupuncturist (the one I saw fifteen years ago instead of the one I'd seen recently. She is awesome) tried the whole "not feeling terrible about things that aren't terrible" thing. It seems oddly comforting. Grateful Crap: Health insurance. I'm just saying. Q is for Questions.
Have you filled out the PHQ-9? Have you filled out the MDQ? Have you had your fill of questionnaires? Are you doing this because you are Depressed? Are you doing this because you are Manic? Are you doing this because it's what you damn well want to do right now so back off? Are you experiencing a Manic Episode? Are you experiencing a Hypomanic Episode? Does it matter what it is called if it is sufficiently interfering with life/work/family? Are you blaming your condition/disability/illness when it's your own dang fault? Are you blaming yourself when it's really due to your condition/disability/illness? Are you overthinking the whole dang thing (per usual)? Does this run in your maternal family? Does this run in your paternal family? Does it run in one or both sides of your family but there has been no history of treatment? Comments are closed.
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