One friend asked me if I also self-medicated with frenetic activity. Because she did. No, I thought. I just naturally hold two or three jobs, volunteer at my children's school, create new programs and systems to handle things at work during my off-hours, play a number of online games, teach myself jewelry making and bead weaving and crochet and embroidery and paper cutting (because it's not sufficient to just knit or sew), play French horn with a fantastic group that rehearses once a week, lead a choir at work, spend quality time with my three children, ferry them to swimming lessons and piano lessons and First Lego League and orchestra, and regret that I don't have time to be involved in community theatre or teach a class through community ed.
Maybe I do have time... Okay, so looking at the list, perhaps she has a point.
But I have always been over-programmed by choice even in high school (band, choir, community theatre, soccer, creative writing, youth orchestra)... oh.
I have made a conscious effort to make sure that my children are not involved in too many structured activities-- that they have time to just be kids. And I seem to also have made a conscious effort to make sure that I have no time to just be.
As part of my ongoing battle with Depression (I will kick its ass), I will make a conscious effort to work on becoming a human be-ing instead of a human do-ing. But it is hard for me to tell when I am being responsible to myself and when I am just being lazy.
However, I think setting aside some time everyday that is just mine in which I am not doing anything useful or productive is perfectly reasonable and probably necessary. Now I am going to go sit in my room for 15 minutes and do nothing quite consciously.
Grateful Crap: Green tea, lack of headaches, a girl who wakes me with "Some books have covers, but we have blankets we can hide under and be secret animals," children who mostly get along, and touch typing. I love the touch typing.
Took meds (okay, I am taking meds right now... be right back) 150mg sertraline, 300mg bupropion
Took chewable B vitamins
Meditated 15 minutes
Spent a moderate amount of time on decluttering projects (I promise)
And I will go to bed at a regular hour
Quaker, teacher, parent,