May 5 After a thoroughly lackluster performance in my teaching day... which was okay because students were just winding up with their end-of-semester projects and enjoying a pot-luck... I made myself useful at a meeting for a friend and helping set up a computer. Being useful is a good plan. I recommend it. If you feel like you are useless, prove yourself wrong. This is the value of work and the value of volunteering, I imagine. Sitting around doing nothing does... nothing... to improve one's self-image and overall mental health. I realized that I should maybe call my provider just to inform them of the down-turn-- even if it is only temporary and my fault. But I did not call. May 6 Went to the Y. Did 20 minutes on the elliptical trainer. Then dutifully went to work. Was inspired by students-- bringing me back to the value of work. Especially work that I find meaningful. I was Super Tired in the afternoon and after engaging in some unproductive yelliness (oh now I am having conniptions because I don't remember how to spell yelliness. yellyness? the yelly?) So, I made a quick and uninspired dinner, and sent myself to bed early. Like at 7:30pm. Woke briefly to change into pajamas, TAKE MY MEDS and brush my teeth. Then slept some more. May 7 Last day of class for my college classes. I will miss the students. Hopefully I will see some of them next year. If I were the boss of the universe, the college would hire me as an adjunct professor to teach a class here. That would totally rock.
This morning (after sleeping an adequate amount) I felt better than I have in weeks. I don't think that is an exaggeration. I woke up and engaged in useful activities instead of just slogging about wondering where I put my glasses for twenty minutes. I have not yet called my provider. I have not yet done something else... oh yes. I have not gone back to my SuperBetter site. I will do that right now. Here is the quest I chose: Write a thank you note to my "sidekick" (brain) listing 10 things its super fast reactivity helps me survive and enjoy life. (This is really hard to do when I am not feeling like I have a particularly fast brain at the moment...)
Grateful Crap: See above list. I cannot be any more grateful at the moment. Daily Convexions: Took meds all three days Got enough sleep on Tuesday night Drank enough water Tuesday during the day Went to the Y on Tuesday Blogged and Superbettered today. Comments are closed.
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