I am not technically in the sanitarium. But this slowcation has felt much like the "Kur" my friend mentioned (except I don't think there probably would have been five very active children and a tornado warning as part of the package)
"You have reached the "taking nice walks in the fresh air" stage of life in the sanitarium. You tire easily, so the walks are limited... If this were Germany, I would send you to a 'Kur,' a sort of multi-week rest in pleasant surroundings with nourishing foods and gentle walks in the forest, followed by afternoon naps."
I have been taking small swims. Very short walks, and long naps in the afternoon. I have also been staying up long past reasonable hours looking at the night sky away from light pollution. And I don't get the multi-week stay; only five days.
I was more on edge today. Less balanced. I found I had very very little patience for sounds that irritate me, for instance. People humming. Chewing bread. You know, unreasonably loud things like that. (sheesh!)
I did realize that I was being irrationally tyrannical and probably just needed to take a break rather than trying to control everyone around me. The break was good. I feel I am doing well. But I don't know if this feeling will last when I get back and I am nervous.
Which is ridiculous because I have been doing quite well. It's just that here at my family's cabin with the lake quiet during the week and the wide sky and no real schedule I have a different kind of freedom from worry that never happens at home. I am removed from so many of the "shoulds" that live in my basement and on my calendar and in my yard and garage.
How can I channel this calm when I return to the unconfronted shoulds? The things that I have been absolved of by my friend but that still have to be dealt with somehow by someone... okay, I am not going to list the stressors here because that is counterproductive. But that's what I am worried about.
Grateful Crap: slowcations
took meds (150mg sertraline, 300 mg bupropion)
took chewable B vitamins
exercised gently in the lake (walking back and forth in waist-deep water)
I need to remember the 4 different elements involved in defeating Depression: physical, mental, biochemical and social. I feel like I am doing a good job on the mental, biochemical and social fronts, but I haven't ventured as far into the physical aspects as I should. Gently. Short walks
Quaker, teacher, parent,