Today I decided to accept invitation to be social. And to stick to my posting and showering and whatever else I said I would do. Not because I want to but because it is good for me.
This morning I got in a not-quite-yelly argument with eldest son about the importance of him getting 20 minutes of exercise BEFORE having computer. Everyday.
Why not later? He promised he would go out later. Which nearly never happens. Because it gets to the end of the day and he is too tired. And so am I.
In my almost-yelly voice I explained that I was not sending him outside as a punnishment. I was sending him out to do something he liked (running, riding bike...) on a beautiful day because it would be good for him.
AND YOU WILL FEEL BETTER!
Right. I told him. Exercise helps reduce the levels of stress hormones. The ones that have you on edge and super frustrated by every little thing.
Yes. And it also increases endorphins in your system. Those make you feel happy. And help your brain work.
Cool. Why don't they just make something you can eat that does that?
Well, illegal narcotic drugs often mimic that effect which is why they are so addictive.
...does walking count as exercise?
This of course has no bearing on my situation whatsoever. (Sarcastic)
I give all the same excuses (in my head or out loud) for why I can't go out and walk or bike or whatever. I'm busy. I'm tired. I don't want to. I'll do it later. Only I don't have some person looming over me saying that I have to because they are the boss of me.
I don't want that, so all you eager volunteers can just back off.
I just want to learn to do healthful aerobic-type things that I am supposed to do just because. Because it's what I do. As habit. And it isn't a chore. Isn't something I have to think about. It just is.
Back from his walk he seemed much more himself. I said I should go on walks with him.
He said yes. You should.
Grateful Crap: Tomorrow is Monday. Calling Provider. Checking in with at least 3 people to let them know I reached someone.
will shower right after this
tea with friend
*note: had a spell of dizzy/clammy/sweaty yuck while out doing errands today. Hopefully not getting what spouse has. He has been out of comission since last Thursday.
Quaker, teacher, parent,