I accidentally forgot to cancel an appointment with behavior health for my home network clinic. But since it is too late to cancel and I was not terribly impressed with my last psychiatrist, I figure I will go ahead and keep this appointment.
Unfortunately I think I threw out the paperwork that they sent me to do ahead of time because I thought that I had already cancelled.
I find myself getting more and more confused about what a possible diagnoses or not diagnosis of bi-polar or not-bi-polar might mean. Or not mean. Are you confused yet?
Depression (even when I know it is chronic) seems like a much more socially acceptable thing. If only recently (somewhat) destigmatized.
Depression seems like the kind of thing that people hope you will be able to rally your forces and finally kick that bastard to the curb.
Depression seems innocuous in some ways. Innocuous but bad. Like lead poisoning. It's not like it jumps out and bites you. Even though if you don't treat it, the disease may well be fatal.
It seems okay for people to talk to you about Depression because they feel like they have some sort of reference. They have been Depressed or depressed or at least very sad. Or they know someone who has had this experience.
When I told people I was Depressed nobody told me that I was wrong. Or that I couldn't possibly be Depressed. They knew me better. They had met Depresed people before and I in No WAY resembled them.
When I told people I was Depressed there was a context.
Bipolar seems lonlier.
Hi, they're thinking I might be bipolar.
list of (wikipidia) bipolar folks
(Have you ever noticed that the dead outnumber the living? I think they are preparing for a hostile takeover.)
This is a pointless activity. Bipolar is such a changeable thing... With all kinds of different symptoms and descriptors along the spectrum.
And many people don't have episodes of mania or Depression for long stretches of time. So then are they NOT bipolar at that time? Or still in treatment? Or just keeping an eye on it?
I cannot wrap my brain around this. Also, still do not know if I need to wrap my brain around it.
Need more data.
Grateful Crap: hopeful future data
taking meds right now (oops)
talked to a friend
took things slow
Quaker, teacher, parent,