It was a long dark week. No reason just cuz. Someone asked what my bipolar cycles are like... and I think it’s like this:
I have what they call “ultra rapid cycling” bipolar. Which means I have a lot more than 4 mood episodes per year.
And climate-wise I’m in the Downs. Where I have been for a long time. With little squalls of hypomania blowing through now and again.
This is sometimes good... like feeding off positive energy from my small class of students.
Sometimes less good like when I spend too much time in crowds, noise, excitement. Without a clear plan to counteract the effects.
I think that to a large extent the mood stabilizer has limited any extended hypomanic episodes. But Depression just keeps hanging around.
Like it has nothing better to do.
After my last post a Friend showed up at my door for a wellness check and took me to get replacement beading supplies.
So now I’m beading. Which I think will be good.
Need to have seasonal meds check. Don’t really want to go since the only med I have really liked is the one I’m on... and it seems not quite up to snuff.
I am able to admit that I am potentially awesome at times so this is not a day that I am deep in the Downs.
Imma keep doing things as if I want to do them. Routine. Leaving the house. Showering. Eating food. Keep the Downs from setting up permanent residence.
Quaker, teacher, parent,