I am dependent on prescription meds. Not addicted per se.
But because I have medically managed my bipolar, I am intertwined with pharmaceuticals in a way I don’t much like.
I was once uncomfortable taking pain meds for a headache... how would I know when the pain was gone?
I have never been drunk. Never used illicit substances. And I would like to not be dependent on meds now.
But I am.
Because they work for me.
Still there is that nagging question: how will I know if I am still bipolar unless I stop taking my meds?
Let me explain this to me...
Bipolar is not going to go away like a headache or a sinus infection or a bout of Depression.
It will only go away like... like sleep. You can avoid it for a while and might show no symptoms of sleep... but eventually it will catch you.
I guess my recent undermedication was a fairly good picture of my continuing bipolarness.
Certainly I am not tempted to cease taking my meds considering how poorly I did on too-low doses of lamotrigine.
am 10 mg escitalopram (2 pills)
pm 200 mg lamotrigine (2pills), 20 mg lurasidone
After one month coming off lurasidone.
I’ve asked friends... am asking friends... to keep an eye on whether I’m becoming too speedy on the escitalopram. We shall see.
Quaker, teacher, parent,