This past week I was walking in the halls at school and I had a momentary experience of awesomeness.
I felt great about life, confidant in my abilities and worth in the world... it only lasted a few seconds but it felt great.
Nice to have a reminder of what that feels like. Scary to realize how low my daily baseline is.
Because right now with no added stressors when things are going well... I am just this side of okay.
Not a lot of reserve. The emotional equivalent of living paycheck to paycheck.
So do something,
Im gonna eat better. Actual vegetables. Learning Chinese cooking. Tonight’s offerings were a hit if not terribly authentic.
End of term is coming. Trying not to tie my self-worth as a parent to my children’s successes and failures.
I feel over busy.
I should unearth the treadmill and use it. If going to the Y is too stressful.
Quaker, teacher, parent,