This past week I was walking in the halls at school and I had a momentary experience of awesomeness.
I felt great about life, confidant in my abilities and worth in the world... it only lasted a few seconds but it felt great. Nice to have a reminder of what that feels like. Scary to realize how low my daily baseline is. Because right now with no added stressors when things are going well... I am just this side of okay. Not a lot of reserve. The emotional equivalent of living paycheck to paycheck. So do something, Im gonna eat better. Actual vegetables. Learning Chinese cooking. Tonight’s offerings were a hit if not terribly authentic. End of term is coming. Trying not to tie my self-worth as a parent to my children’s successes and failures. I feel over busy. I should unearth the treadmill and use it. If going to the Y is too stressful. Comments are closed.
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K. BuchananQuaker, teacher, parent, |