A friend of mine came here as an exchange student from Iran as a high school student. She was asked to speak to a group of people who had sponsored her here-- the rotary club? At any rate, she stood up in front of everyone, super nervous about speaking in public (and in her second language!) and said,
"I would like to thank everyone for their hostility."
When she saw the incredulous looks on people's faces, she thought they were just being self-deprecating and modest and so she followed up by saying, "No, I really mean it. You have all been so hostile to me."
Much later (because nobody told her that night) she realized that she should have said hospitality/hospitable.
Funny how much more often we use the one word over the other. And how much easier it is to recognize and acknowledge feelings of hostility when directed toward us. And how sometimes we mean to be hospitable and it comes out all wrong and spiteful and everything kinda sucks due to some sort of miscommunication on one or both parts.
Psych NP says that she is glad I am blogging all this crap because she is impressed with how thoughtful I am about the bipolar crap. And it is nice to have a smart, articulate, introverted person writing about bipolar crap while going through it. If that makes sense.
Her theory was that it could possibly help A LOT of people. I figure if even one post helps even one person (in any way whatsoever) then I have met my own goal.
(This just made me think of an own goal in (not American) football, which is not the same.)
I think there needs to be some more inventiveness in the bipolar industry. Pharmaceuticals are well and good, but the whole problem of swinging from one pole to the other without catching the middle is very vexing.
I was thinking that perhaps we could incorporate something like they use on aircraft carriers to help planes slow down upon landing. A big hook. So that as you start to swing past equilibrium into mania or Depression, you can rely on this external force to reach out and make an instant course correction.
A sort of emotional safety net.
Can I tell you how much I DO NOT WANT to go back and see OFP? All I can say is that she better pull out all the stops when I see her next week... because otherwise I am really going to not want to go talk to her. Ever. See, this is what it is like having a bipolar person for a client. It is the best of times, it is the worst of times...
I would just stick with Psych NP. But I think that having the talk therapy part is important as well.
Quaker, teacher, parent,