I was down this morning and then in the middle and then a bit up. Kind of all over the place today. The grey outside can lead to the horrible cliche of melancholy. Which it probably did.
Not going to write a lot because it is after ten, but I didn't want to miss two days in a row. It would then become like my phone. I have not listened to the 12 messages waiting for me for so long that I am disinclined to check them. Because it can't be anything good.
So too if I miss enough days of this blog that I mean to do daily, the weight of all those missing entries will be enough to drive me away.
Had some uncomfortable eating-disordered-type thoughts and feelings today. So I overcompensated by eating more food than I wanted to. As if to prove that I will not engage in restricting behaviors. You know, the eating disorder may or may not be the thing that kicked off my clinical Depression in the first place. It may also be to blame for the seven years it took to conceive my first child.
First child (pictured above) turned eleven today.
took meds in the morning (150mg sertraline, 450mg bupropion)
See, there is a strong correlation between days that I feel down and days that I do nothing to combat Depression but take the pills. Wise up. Get on the ball. Get off your butt. Get moving. Tomorrow.
Quaker, teacher, parent,