It was very tired out today. I slept in. I took a nap. I will likely go to bed in a timely fashion tonight as well. I had an appointment with the OFP this morning. It was good. I fell into my recently usual crying spell on the way to her office. Which pissed me off. When I filled out the PHQ9 that is supposed to tell if I am depressed or not and i always come out with a 4 today I was a 9. But it didn't feel Depressed. It felt Anxious and Horrible. Jittery and sad. Incapacitated and angry. Blarg.
I think getting off the lithium will be a good idea. It certainly did not seem to help. And in many ways seemed to make things worse. But this means that I will not have any medications in place to help deal with the manic side of the equation. And let me stress again that I am not extreme either in the Depression or the mania. For which I am extremely grateful.
It looks like lamotrigine is known to be decent for preventing recurrent depressive episodes, but is not great at addressing the manic side of things except maybe preventing or delaying the mania. In general it is known as a maintenance drug and not one used to treat a current mood episode. And I think I am in a mood episode. Mild mania. Crap.
So the OFP reminded me of the non-drug things that I need to be doing to treat/prevent manic crap:
exercise, sleep, healthy eating... all the boring and unsexy stuff like that.
Here is my assignment
Mostly the non-medicinal ways to prevent mania focus on reducing chaos and promoting routine.
Here is my secondary assignment
took meds: 450mg bupropion, 200mg lamotrigine
saw the OFP
played with the daughter (hide and seek and LEGO)
K is for knackered
Quaker, teacher, parent,