After waiting and waiting and then deciding (before I heard the news) that I did not get the job it was a relief to hear that I did not, in fact, get the job. As spouse pointed out prior to this news, however, I have a job that I love and that does not go away as a result of this interview process.
(Also, the new job went to a dear friend of mine so I don't feel angry with the hiring committee. We both kick ass.)
The waiting, however, was not fun. It may have contributed to lethargy and headacheyness of the past two days. I did very little. Lay around and did nothing. Waited and waited and waited. For the phone to ring. When it did ring, I answered it without realizing it and then threw the phone on the floor of the car.
Don't like limbo. Much happier now that I have the answer. I don't know anyone who does like limbo. I guess that is what makes the idea of purgatory kind of ominous.
So tomorrow I have an unambiguous start to fall planning, a desire to get my things in order at home and really honest I will hop on the whole scheduling of things. I found myself in a holding pattern until I had more information on the outcome of job interview.
Which I fully realize is ridiculous. But there you have it.
Eventually I am confident that I will get a contract-- hopefully by the time my 3yo enters kindergarten. Until then I appreciate the freedom that my limited schedule offers.
Quaker, teacher, parent,