What if I don't know what normal feels like? What if what I think is normal is not normal? Does this matter?
Is it inevitable that mood-swingy Depression must be part of the bipolar disorder spectrum?
Is it the necessary conclusion that mild bipolar episodes will worsen if not treated?
Also: why isn't there a fricken' fracken' blood test for any of this crap!?!!!!
It makes it hard for me to believe in a diagnosis that requires me to self-report. Because what if I'm wrong? What if I'm lying? What if I just plain don't remember?
Depending on what mood I'm in when I talk to psych person I might give very different answers. Does a diagnosis hinge on a single turn of phrase?
And what if the person I see has never seen anyone with non-unipolar Depression? Will she be more inclined or less inclined to make a complicated diagnosis?
Also, what if this is all just crap and I am unipolarly Depressed with bouts of sleep-induced energy?
And will I be out of limbo on the basis of what one person says? Probably not.
My friend with a bipolar diagnosis has someone she recommends. She might be a good person to seek out if I am left in limbo after meeting with psychiatrist in about a week. Maybe I should bring someone with me who is more reliable and has known me for some time. I don't know.
I'd rather just hide under a rock.
Grateful Crap: Nice weather; time with family
took meds (in the morning. 150mg venlafaxine and 450mg bupropion)
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