New experience today: many irritating things happened relating to where I was supposed to be and when I was supposed to be there. And most of them were somewhat under my control. Roads were slippery, I didn't have all my stuff together in time to leave as early as I needed to. It involved me being:
In the past with or without any (overt or implied) criticism I would have spent most of the rest of today (and parts of tomorrow and mabe the rest of the week) beating myself up over the fact that I screwed up. And there would be a continuous internal audiotape about what a terrible parent/spouse/offspring/teacher/person I am for said screw ups. Wow when I write it down it looks very ridiculous. However, it is true. So this was a pleasant difference. And seemed oddly healthy. This must be what it is like to have a measured response. Grateful Crap: quote from nearly-three-year-old who did not want to take a nap: "Snuggle yourself." Daily Convexions took meds in the morning experimented with not freaking out when I make mistakes drank enough water ran up 3 of the 4 flights of stairs spent no more than 45 minutes decluttering (binged a bit on that yesterday) and I will go to sleep at a reasonable hour Comments are closed.
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K. BuchananQuaker, teacher, parent, |