New experience today: many irritating things happened relating to where I was supposed to be and when I was supposed to be there. And most of them were somewhat under my control.
Roads were slippery, I didn't have all my stuff together in time to leave as early as I needed to.
It involved me being:
In the past with or without any (overt or implied) criticism I would have spent most of the rest of today (and parts of tomorrow and mabe the rest of the week) beating myself up over the fact that I screwed up.
And there would be a continuous internal audiotape about what a terrible parent/spouse/offspring/teacher/person I am for said screw ups.
Wow when I write it down it looks very ridiculous. However, it is true.
So this was a pleasant difference. And seemed oddly healthy. This must be what it is like to have a measured response.
Grateful Crap: quote from nearly-three-year-old who did not want to take a nap: "Snuggle yourself."
took meds in the morning
experimented with not freaking out when I make mistakes
drank enough water
ran up 3 of the 4 flights of stairs
spent no more than 45 minutes decluttering (binged a bit on that yesterday)
and I will go to sleep at a reasonable hour
Quaker, teacher, parent,