I have been faithful to my plans, although I have not been able to blog for the past few days. I was without computer for the long weekend. It was kind of nice.
I spent my time at Northern Yearly Meeting with Quakers from Minnesota and Wisconsin. I think that's the only states people come from. I suddenly feel woefully uninformed.
Kids had half-days with their own age-group classes. I used that time to work on flowers for my yarn garden (see yarn bombing).
Friday before we left I visited with the clinical psychiatric nurse (I think that's her title) to review my treatment plan and come up with a strategy. Here is what we came up with: stay on the same medication I have now (sertraline: aka zoloft) but increase the dosage slightly. I will also continue to do things to combat depression besides just the pills and in a month we will visit again.
So far I am on day five on the new dosage. I have not noticed any negatives side effects. I'll keep you posted. In general I have not have bad side effects from any of the medications I have taken. I have tried at various times: prozac, celexa, wellbutrin, and zoloft.
I don't remember anything about celexa or wellbutrin. I only know that I was on them because I found reference to them in an old journal entry for my MFA program in creative writing. There must have been a reason that we tried them. There must have been a reason why we discarded them. I'll have to ask my doctor next time I see her if there are any notes about this in my chart. I am curious.
Mainly, I know, I have gone back and forth between Zoloft and Prozac. Prozac, as an older medication, was less worrisome for pregnant women since they have had more experience with it. My midwife was quite insistant that I stay on antidepressants during all of my pregnancies. Although it is often called "post-partum depression" it can just as easily hit during pregnancy. And with a history of depression and a current diagnosis of depression it was considered quite likely that pregnancy would be taxing to the chemical balance of my brain.
Now I am catching up on regular life and trying not to bite off more than I can chew. Someone asked me if I often over-schedule and over-program myself when I am depressed. Yes. So I have an excuse not to deal with the real-life things that are overwhelming. So I don't have time to think and get sucked down.
Quaker, teacher, parent,