I don't bounce back quickly from heat-related stuff, apparently. I am still a little shaky. I feel like I have had the flu and am only out of my bed today after a week of aches and fever. I am also experiencing foggy foggy brain. My head feels like it is floating above my body somewhere, not attached to my neck. Today I am on hold from worries and projects and planning. I am resting. I am recovering. Tomorrow I will reevaluate, regroup and decide where to go. My goal for the day is to end it feeling more refreshed than when I started. It is difficult for me sometimes to do this slowing down while at home because A) I feel guilty looking around at all the things that need to get done and B) I wonder if I am not doing them because I am Depressed, lazy, mean, or a slob. So today is also a respite from guilt. I did hang clothes on the line and do a few loads of wash, but I did not spend the whole day doing laundry. Or convinced that I can do all laundry in one day. I am still suffering from Big Laundry, but it is getting progressively better. As I fold clothes I have bins for storage and Goodwill and I am slowly weeding out the unused clothing that miraculously keeps making it into the wash even though nobody wears it. (!) Here is my mad plan for purging the non-clothing related items: I will bring up a box at a time and sort things into trash and Goodwill. Then I will put the items neatly in my garage. When I have a critical mass of either group I will borrow my brother's truck and make a drop off. How is that for moderation? Even if I only do one box a week I will be making progress. I have to clear out the basement because my oldest really needs his own useable space and my junk is getting in the way of that. No, OUR junk is getting in the way of that. My respite is greatly helped by the fact that I had nowhere to go today, one of my kids is off playing with a friend, and it is not oppressively hot outside. There is a nice breeze blowing the clothes on the line. I took my inhaler so the pollen and the smoke from the fires in Canada are not bothering me. (But I still maintain that people should be required to choose between asthma, allergies and Depression and not try to do all three because it just cannot be done well.) I am due to visit my clinical psychiatric nurse practitioner on Monday, I think. They rescheduled on me and I don't remember when it is. What do I need to remember to ask her?
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