I realize that it's only 3:20 but I am calling it: today is a good day. I have felt more like me and less like blaaaaaaahhhhhhh. I successfully did some things without feeling like I must do all things.
I think that having days in the summer where I don't have to run around is going to be a good thing. It should give me some time to catch up with all the regular life things that kind of get away from me when my depression is at its most loomy.
This balance of obligation and enjoyment is a tricky one. It's the push and pull between engaging in activities that let me experience "flow" and thus increase my level of happiness and making sure that the basics get done and I get enough sleep.
Musings on the current state of flow
I really want to make an awesome cake because I have been reading the cakewrecks blog.
I can't get sucked into surfing for cool things on the internet because it takes time away from the activities that make me happy. And then I have to stay up way too late in order to do both things.
I am attempting to teach myself to crochet. I have noticed that all people who crochet talk about how much easier it is than knitting. So as I rip out the same 3 rounds of stitches for the fiftieth time I say to myself, "Crochet is soooo easy." It is unclear whether crochet is an enjoyable activity or an obligation.
Quaker, teacher, parent,