#whatnottosay to anyone. Really. Because you don’t know what anyone else is carrying.
Acquaintance: I could never date someone with bipolar.
Me: I have bipolar.
Acq: ...I think I could take the depression, but not the crazy. I’m so chill. It just wouldn’t match with my temperament.
Maybe she’s right… Maybe I am Undateable. Why would anyone want to deal with all this crap anyway?
Why should Spouse stay with me?
She’s right the Ups and Downs suck. When choosing someone to date, who would seek out a person with mental illness.
That would actually be a really creepy thing to do.
In the wake of dealing with crappy depression stuff at work, this was a particularly unhelpful, unwanted, and deeply hurtful exchange.
I spent some time crying for no reason at work on Monday. Today was better with the exception of this isolated conversation...
But depression isn’t something that you just shake off in a day.
Called psych NP to schedule an appointment. I will see her on February 20.
In the meantime I am increasing my dose of the Lamotrigine from 200 mg to 250 mg that way I can let her know if a slight increase in the dosage helps with the depression.
Thanks to supportive friends and family. You rock.
Quaker, teacher, parent,