Much as I hate to admit it, I think that the psychiatrist was right: I am used to being just a little bit hypomanic. Zippy. Containing a tad too much energy and excitement. Full of ideas that are bouncing around, but not bouncing so fast that I can't keep them under control.
I have been feeling Down for a bit over a week. Not so much this weekend or today. So that's good. I wonder sometimes if Down is just what I feel like when I am not a little bit hypomanic. Not Depressed. Just... not very much of anything.
I also wonder if it matters. I mean whether it even makes sense to tease out whether things are as a result of temperament or illness/disability.
How curious to make a distinction between these two. Do we call things illnesses if there is a possibility of recovery and disability is saved for permanent conditions? Cancer is not considered a disability-- perhaps because however elusive their may be. Is this why Depression is considered an illness an Bipolar is considered a disability?
The label certainly has nothing to do with the level of impairment. Both illness and disability fall on a continuum. A little bit sick through EXTREMELY SICK. Also mildly disabled to majorly disabled. (Insert whatever politically correct phrase you would like to here about differently abled or whatnot.)
I am done teaching for the summer. I have people subbing for me through the end of summer session. Partly because I feel the need for more than 5 days of summer break before I start teaching in the fall. And partly because I need time just to get things DONE before the school year starts. Giddy-up here it comes! (Relieved. I do better with routine. And I do even better with routine that I like.)
This is very scattered because I failed to blog for a long time. I don't know a week or more. Was not really into the whole opening my computer while at home sort of thing. Except to write.
And I have been writing, which is good. I am up to 38,000 words on the second book in my not-too-trashy romance novel series. Thoroughly enjoying the writing process. So that is good.
I have been beading, but in a responsible fashion. I have started making smaller pieces instead of just the beaded cuffs since wide bracelets are not for everyone and they are gonna be kind a pricey. So pins, barrettes, little framed doodads, (gotta love the doodads) and a few whatnots (gotta be my favorite--the whatnots).
OH - super excited that not only did my beading get accepted into the women's art expo BUT my work is featured on the promotional post cards for the show! They still have last year's stuff on their website, but I'll let you know when it changes...
I have my stuff on a website now that I haven't shared with anyone really, but I'm going to change it into more of a gallery (without option to purchase-- since I am really not set up to handle that and I need all the inventory I can put together for the expo).
I really kicked butt today:
Quaker, teacher, parent,