I start teaching on Monday. So this is my last day of summer break. I am celebrating by taking it easy. Doing some basic paper decluttering. Perhaps a load or two of laundry...
Although I made a super stupid slip-up and stayed up until... let me see I have to check my facebook account...
Ewww! I stayed up until 4:24 am. Really? I don't remember it being that late. But my status update says that I posted seven hours ago, which would make it 4:24 am.
Anyway, like I was saying, although I fantastically missed the mark of getting to bed before 1 am yesterday, I feel much better today than I did yesterday. I think I napped for six to eight hours during the day because I was so wiped out. And my oldest was super helpful in keeping the youngest occupied and happy. What a gift.
But even with all that rest (or because of all that rest?) my whole body ached. Including my head. In fact I had such a bad headache that at 10 pm I decided to make myself a cup of coffee. Today I will make an effort not to nap during the day (at least not so extravagantly) and not to have caffeine so late at night.
I am probably floating on the adrenaline rush of having taken a field trip with my boss to my new worksite... I will be co-teaching child development at a local community college. I am almost ridiculously exited about it. I love a challenge. I love something new. And I love teaching just about anything.
As a normal human being I am an introvert; groups larger than four exhaust me even when I really like the people. Ask friends of mine how often I have shown up at parties they have invited me to attend. Not never. But almost. That kind of socializing is not recreational for me; it is work.
I can do family gatherings with some greater ease, because small talk is less necessary and if I decide I suddenly have to take a nap or lie flat on the ground and stare at clouds, they are used to my eccentricities. I run out of steam if I am with groups of people in my normal life though, family or not. My batteries become exhausted and I must closet myself away to recover.
As a teacher, though, I am an extrovert. I get big hits of energy from working with groups of students. So working in the classroom instead of doing most of my work as a distance learning instructor means I will get more good brain chemistry going from my job. Yippee!
On the work to live or the live to work equation, I definitely like being on the live to work side. I love my job.
Pretty sure that the adrenaline and the coffee that I snuck this morning (I don't want to get back on the caffeine) will wear off soon and I will crash. But for now I am enjoying the lack of exhaustion, lack of pain, and presence of excitement and happiness.
I do not feel Depressed right now.
I feel like me.
Grateful Crap: moments when I feel like this, the cooling breeze of fall, music wafting through the house, oldest child making lunch for the family
Quaker, teacher, parent,