I didn't know if I took my meds on Monday. I spent the day thusly:
And I didn't know if I took my meds.
Which was more upsetting to me than anything else. I discovered this morning that the answer was no. I did not take my meds. The pill minder was completely full. Not a pill missing.
Today gets to be a fresh start. Fresh start. No recriminations for the disorganization that my child has inherited or learned from me. Or the fact that my lack of oversight is what allowed his falling behind in assignments. No yelling at myself for misunderstandings between me and my co-teacher. No regrets about how things unfolded yesterday. No thinking about pink elephants.
Whenever I went to Tai Chi class at a particularly stressful time in my work life and the teacher told us not to think about any of the stressors in our lives. Which of course instantly brought to mind the most stressful things I could think about. And the most stressful people. And all of the things that had gone wrong and were going wrong and might go wrong.
So today I am going to the Y. And I am going to CHILL OUT. I have already taken meds. I will post later today (this counts as yesterday). I cannot skip days. It encourages me to throw out baby with bathwater and cease being accountable to anyone. Including me.
Grateful Crap: new days
not a dang thing
Quaker, teacher, parent,