I don't remember what went on this day. Oh yeah. I went out to my mom's house and ate pie to celebrate (belatedly) pie day.
Then I raced home to get to game night with eldest son at my friend's house. So I get brownie points (which I would love to exchange for actual brownies) for walking into a social situation with an unidentified number of people. And some of them I had not met before. Or had not seen for years.
I did not break out in hives. I did not send anyone running. I didn't stay long and I don't think I can do this twice a month. There were good things about it. It was fun to play Apples to Apples. And I liked everyone at the gathering, don't get me wrong. But maybe just for right now-- feeling fragile-- I want smaller groups of people. Even if they are people I really like.
After a while I just started to feel sad. For no reason. Or detached. And it was my own dang fault. I don't want to make it sound like I was excluded in any way. This is all internal.
Grateful Crap: I finished a sweater for the daughter. Pictures to folllow
Daily convexions: took meds, socialized, spent time with eldest son, saw family (all this may have put my socializing on overload trying to do ll this on one day. Very little time to unwind. I don't know.)
Quaker, teacher, parent,