Right. So I have two things to say and I can remember neither of them. Let's see... Okay, I type wicked fast. No really. Wicked. Fast. Although properly I should say that I word process very fast. Give me a typewriter and I totally suck. Because it's different. Like the difference between a piano and an electric keyboard. They look the same, but I can play piano and I absolutely cannot play keyboard. Not just that I don't want to or that I'm snobby about it. I just am not good at it. At all.
But that is likely not what I was going to say.
Oh yeah, here is one of them.
Backstory for this blog and why it started and what its name was and why the name changed.
Once upon a time in May 2013 I missed work because I could not stop crying. Wasn't sad about anything in particular. Just crying. Having been undertreated for my chronic Depression (which I had been suffering with since 1989 give or take) I decided that enough was enough...
I was going to Kick Depression's Ass.
In order to accomplish this, I started a blog, began seeing a behavioral psychiatric nurse to manage my antidepressants and in general set about finding out what I needed to do to get mentally healthy instead of just living with chronic Mild Depression with occasional dips into Major Depression.
The blog was originally named "Convexity" because that is the opposite of "Depression." And I wasn't trying to get happy. I was trying to get un-Depressed. Which is different.
Fast forward to August 2014. I get a different diagnosis. A DIFFERENT DIAGNOSIS? Meaning that Major Depression was not the problem. Depression was involved, but I was actually dealing with Bipolar Disorder.
Having spent a long time knowing that I was Depressed made it difficult to wrap my brain around the new label for what was going on in my brain (even though that's what had been going on before and only the label changed... and I started taking the appropriate medication.)
Shortly after the diagnosis I decided that I needed to change the name of my blog because I am no longer aiming for the opposite of Depression. In fact seeking opposite ends of things is kinda the problem.
So: Life Between the Poles
I try to post daily, but have decided not to be dogmatic about this (kind of uncharacteristic of me).
I try to remember to write one thing that I am grateful for.
I try to include my "Equatorial Actions" - which are the things that help me stay balanced and in the middle instead of toppling toward one polar extreme or the other.
Just wanted to get people caught up. Now, if I had something else to write I don't know what it was and I am not gonna do it right now.
Grateful Crap: 12yo "I'm not the kind of person who gets upset because they don't get enough presents."
took meds (150mg venlafaxine, 450mg bupropion, 100mg lamotrigine)
wearing my yellow glasses at night
-did not tap dance-
time with family
drank enough water
ooh... met and did stuff with Unfamiliar People in a Social Setting
Umm... oh yeah. I started taking the fish oil, magnesium, allergy meds and vitamins again
P.S. Cannot find any of the 3 cords I have that connect my cameras to my computer. So no new pictures. Kinda sad. Gotta work on that.
Quaker, teacher, parent,