I am adding planny to my vocablogary. Helpy: trying to help or helping in name only while actually causing more work. Example: I thought I could clean the kitchen cupboards but 3yo was being helpy. Or I was trying to help, but ended up being helpy instead. Yelly; yelliness: pointless and loud argumentative noises that May or may not include discernible words. Examples: I had trouble calming down because it was so yelly in the living room. We have all been perpetrators of yelliness at one time or the other. Planny: being so organized and planful that you can't remember what clever clever things you did and now you must start from scratch. Example: I thought I was prepared to present to the class, but I was too planny and couldn't find the right document. Still down today. Still tired afternoon. Not as sick feeling. Humidifier helps. I was hi-fricken-larious in class today. I was a one woman stand-up routine. And I noticed this long ago... At certain levels of depression I make humor into a fantastic defensive weapon. If i play it straight, I don't have to try and fake a smile. If I am making people laugh then I am in control. Triggers stay away. No one asks me what's wrong. Which is nice because I often have no good answer. Of course I also like to make people laugh when I am not depressed. But it feels different then. Feels more like something I am doing with people and not something I am doing to people. Told my co teacher that I was in the Downs. But I do feel like I am gradually returning to what passes for normal. Came up with good plan for bag a day project... Labeled grocery bag for each day of week. Filled Monday today. Now done with declutter for the day. Grateful crap: equilibrium and spell check. But not autocorrect. It wanted coteacher to be "deck udder." Comments are closed.
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