I am adding planny to my vocablogary.
Helpy: trying to help or helping in name only while actually causing more work.
Example: I thought I could clean the kitchen cupboards but 3yo was being helpy.
I was trying to help, but ended up being helpy instead.
Yelly; yelliness: pointless and loud argumentative noises that May or may not include discernible words.
I had trouble calming down because it was so yelly in the living room.
We have all been perpetrators of yelliness at one time or the other.
Planny: being so organized and planful that you can't remember what clever clever things you did and now you must start from scratch.
Example: I thought I was prepared to present to the class, but I was too planny and couldn't find the right document.
Still down today. Still tired afternoon. Not as sick feeling. Humidifier helps.
I was hi-fricken-larious in class today. I was a one woman stand-up routine. And I noticed this long ago...
At certain levels of depression I make humor into a fantastic defensive weapon.
If i play it straight, I don't have to try and fake a smile.
If I am making people laugh then I am in control. Triggers stay away.
No one asks me what's wrong. Which is nice because I often have no good answer.
Of course I also like to make people laugh when I am not depressed.
But it feels different then. Feels more like something I am doing with people and not something I am doing to people.
Told my co teacher that I was in the Downs. But I do feel like I am gradually returning to what passes for normal.
Came up with good plan for bag a day project... Labeled grocery bag for each day of week. Filled Monday today. Now done with declutter for the day.
Grateful crap: equilibrium and spell check. But not autocorrect. It wanted coteacher to be "deck udder."
Quaker, teacher, parent,