I checked in with my behavioral psychiatric nurse practitioner today. She was shocked by my accidental overdose and very glad that I did not have a seizure. Me too. She quizzed me before I left and asked how many of each kind of pill I needed to take. I got an A+
This blog turned out to be a very valuable resource because I could use it to go back and see when I changed to 450mg of bupropion, when I accidentally upped it to 600mg (I even mentioned not being sure that I had remembered to take 4 pills-- I am supposed to take 3).
I was also able to track a more-than-coincidental relationship between taking my bupropion later in the day and having some zombie-like experiences or having that foggy feeling. So I am going to make an extra special concerted effort to make sure that I always take the pills in the morning (which is the plan anyway, so good).
She was quite happy with the work that I am doing with the blog, with the brilliance of my friends (thank thee F/friends) in their stellar advice. And in general gave a stamp of approval to the general direction that everything seems to be going.
Old me would translate this into "Woo Hoo! I am C-U-R-E-D." Especially when it seemed like she was giving me a non-verbal "What do you need me for?" I would use that as an invitation to take myself off my meds and gradually slide back and back and back. The new me things this is a piss poor idea. New me wins.
I feel like the meds (when taken properly) are at the right dosage and the right combination, at least for now. I have an appointment set for six months out. This is good. It gives me time to try and get some of the non-medication stuff into more regular rotation.
So without letting myself off the hook medication-wise I need to look at being mindful of the nutrition and daily exercise. I think I should get a pedometer. Makes it easy to collect good data and make incremental changes in my routines.
On my list for tomorrow:
Grateful Crap: today is over. (got a haircut from a beauty school that took 150 minutes.)
took meds (150mg sertraline, 450 mg bupropion)
checked in with behavioral psych person
that's really it. I promise I will go to bed reasonably well tonight
Quaker, teacher, parent,