All songs that I like to sing/listen to (sad or not)
Watching children perform (mine or other people's)
Hearing about awesome things
Hearing about terrible things
Instrumental music programs
Preschool "graduation" programs (daughter not even the one graduating... I'm just preparing for next year)
The idea of my job changing
The idea of my job staying the same
Seriously. I can cry at the drop of a hat. Dang, perhaps I should have included "hat dropping" on my list above. Does this increased weepiness have anything to do with the recent addition of lithium? Probably not, because I haven't been on it for even ten days. I think. I need to check on this because I think pretty soon I'm supposed to increase my dose from 300 to 450mg.
For a long time now I have been wallowing in my bipolarism. Not having the will or energy to do much beyond get out of bed, eat regular meals and take my pills. Which is pretty much the bare minimum.
So I went for a little refresher on things that I ought to be doing. I found some good information from the Royal College of Psychiatrists.
Here are some things I ought to be thinking about. (without thinking that I need to do ALL OF THEM at once. Perhaps I can just start with one thing...)
keep a mood diary (to try and catch mood episodes early before they get BIG)
avoid stressful situations (because they can trigger manic or depressive episode)
balance life/work/leisure and relationships (being too busy can bring on manic episode)
exercise 20 minutes 3 times a week seems to improve mood
regularly do things that I enjoy
I think that the stress and lack of exercise have had a negative effect on my well being. As would they for anyone. Ugh. Sometimes the bipolar thing seems like a fake label. Because the things that are not good for me are not good for anyone else. And the things that are good for me are good for other people too.
And it isn't like stress is any worse for me than it is for anyone else, right? Particularly because on the scale of bipolarity, I am not terrible severely bipolar. Perhaps it is just that the way the bipolar brain responds to stress is different from the neurotypical brain. Not that it is better or worse. Just different.
Clearly I am more introspective than I have been in some time, which I'm going to put down as a good sign. Brain-function-wise anyway.
One of my favorite exchanges with a friend:
me: I like people
friend: no you don't.
me: sure I do. I like you.
friend: you don't like people. you like person.
Quaker, teacher, parent,