I have "taught" at my new school for two days now. Actually I just shadowed the long term sub that I am replacing and took copious notes. So far I am still in the honeymoon phase and I am hopped up on hypomanic teaching endorphins. That's right-- I get a hit from teaching. Sick and wrong, I know. Ha.
Now I am sort of back in the closet bipolar-wise. Not really in and not really out. One of those no reason to disclose particularly and I have no desire to hide. Still, you don't really start off a new job by saying, "Thanks for hiring me. By the way I am living with a mental illness." It's just not done. It's like saying, "Thanks for hiring me. By the way I only change my socks every three months." After you've been there a while and people know you and love you, the sock thing might be seen as an endearing quirk. Something in the realm of eccentricity. Now it is just rather horribly off-putting and potentially quite smelly. So. I am using my obsessive organizy powers for good instead of evil-- figuring out how we are going to do dinners etc. And here is the thing: it really isn't all that different. In the past, there was the potential that I would make dinner during the day while the kids were at school. There was the possibility that I would clean the kitchen or do the laundry or rewrite the constitution in Old French. Or possibly Sanskrit. But in reality, I wouldn't do any of these things until after I picked up the kids. And it was never with any forethought. I guess the difference is in the past I had a chance to take a break earlier in the day-- only if I could convince the daughter to nap or I had her glued to the television set for the duration. Here is my rosy-eyed optimistic view: that I will have more time now that I am working full time. And I will not bring my work home. And I will have some idea of what is for dinner before I arrive at home in the afternoon. Because here is the thing: I will still be home by 4:30 or so. And I like to cook. If I convince the daughter that it is fun mother/daughter time it will even give her brothers a bit of a break. Do you like this wonderful fantasy that I have created? Anyway, I feel that I have made the right decision. Which is good. Handed off the reins today for a person who will teach my Saturday class. It is a good thing; my students really wanted to continue. And she will be good. Anyway, must dash... K Comments are closed.
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